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Although the Lord appeared before him by showing Himself to him, the saint had not reached a mental state where he could straigt-a-way take advantage of this by reaching up to this Lord. Instead, he appeared to be weighted down by the Malam (Karma, ego etc) and goes through agonising paroxysms of self-abasement On the one hand a fervent appeal to God. On the other. He also wants to continue in this birth indefinitely so that he can enjoy the vision of his Lord in the shape of the Ambrosia--honey-sugarcandy Bliss with which he filled every part of his body. What we must make of the relevant stanzas is a plea for continuing to live (and not a plea for death) so that he can continue to enjoy the biiss. In these two verses, the saint seems not to discard his body as it is needed to have a vision of the Lord and be redeemed. He prays to the transcendent supreme Effulgence - day in and day out for his grace. 9. (a) What happened? The ardent prayers of the saint with undying love have been answered. God entered his carnal body, mingled with his soul and would never depart from his mind. He bestowed upon him a gracious boon not known by even the heavenly ones(34:2). What is this blissful boon? The answer seems to be imbedded in the “Decad of life-consuming consciousness” (34). He says that he does not know the trick played on him by the Lord of Thirupperunthurai as He has made him God-mad and has transcended his mind and speech. He sings, “I do not know myself as I? I do not know the recurrence of even day and night! (3)” He expresses in very clear terms that the Lord has entered his body, melted his very bones and He his established himself there in his mind and in his eyes (34:4) siling up his body and soul without leaving any space (34:6)