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The saint is pained that his mind drifts him into the net of lust for women and pleads not to forsake him (27,38,40,41,). He repeats “Oh my owner! Behold that You do not forsake me. I am butter-like and am sinking in the violent fire of sharp dart-like eyed women. Please unite me with the band of Your devotees who worshipping Your flowery Feet go towards heaven. I am Your vassal. Oh Lord! Do not forsake me who keep on doing wrong. Let me sing of You for ever”(44). Finally he is vexed and declares that if He does forsake him he would complain about Him to His devotees. “Behold that You do not forsake me who like the fly on the jack fruit keep craving for the breasts of women with fawn-like glances. If You forsake me I shall broad-cast slanders about You by saying that You are a dark-throated One Who ate poison of the sea! A mere human being without worthy qualities! A person with waning moon and an ancient Mendicant!” (46). The spirit of the sub-title of the poem runs throrugh the entire poem. He offers himself even to be mortgaged and sold away (18) as pointed out to his mind that He has the authority to sell him away (5:34). This shows his complete and unconditional surrender to God. Having surrendered himself He pleads not to forsake him lest he should be ruined (23,44). The singificant feature of this poem is to be seen in his fond rebuke of the Lord that he will slander Him to laughter in the midst of His devotees in case He does forsake him (48). The climax of his abuse lies when he enumerates the acts of madness of the Lord-Civan-that He is a lunatic in enslaving even him-the saint! (49). Further he laments that he cannot endure his foul-smelling, flesh-ridden and disease harbouring body and pleads whether it is just to leave hio (44). He wails that he